The lowest time on my life

and here we go, I started again on this problem, more involved than before, in my mind to think that all purely futile, in the end all is not as dreamed of in that be.
what is the case? or just my feeling? I also did not know if that is true I will begin to occur regardless of all of it will be, about her life ....
that this might be the lowest time in my life ...
..hmmm..